Rhythm by H.L. Logan

Author:H.L. Logan [Logan, H.L.]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2017-08-08T23:00:00+00:00

14

Emily

I felt like such a selfish bitch.

When I’d thought about breaking up with Kaitlyn, I’d thought about my heartbreak. I considered what it was going to feel like to have to live without her for a while. Hell, I’d even deluded myself into thinking it would only be a temporary thing.

And I never once considered how it was going to feel for her. Didn’t for a second think about how this break-up was going to tear her to pieces and how she wasn’t going to want to wait a year for me to finish school. I didn’t think about how having sex with her for the first time and then leaving was going to affect her. Nope, never thought about any of it, because I was a total and complete asshole.

How could I have done this to her? We had this great, intense, passionate relationship, and I’d just dropped a bomb. She’d probably been thinking we were going to be a long term-thing, like I’d been thinking, and I’d just pulled the rug out from under her.

I fell to my bed, face first, my head hitting my white feather pillow. I screamed into it, desperate to get all my pent-up emotions out. But in my drunkenness, I completely forgot about the fact that Abby was still home. A moment later, she burst into my room.

“Is everything okay?!” she asked quickly, followed by, “Where’s Kaitlyn?”

“She left,” I said bitterly, “and yeah, I’m okay…” I sighed. “I’m kind of okay.”

“Why’d you scream?” she asked as she wrung her wet hair into a towel.

“I just needed to get it out.”

“So, something has been bothering you tonight?” she asked.

“Something’s definitely wrong,” I told her vaguely.

She looked at me expectantly. “Well?”

“Well, Kaitlyn and I are through.”

“What?” she gasped. “But… how? You two seemed so happy tonight, and… oh my god, you poor thing, I’m so sorry. Did she give a reason?”

She clearly didn’t get it at first. “What? No, she didn’t break up with me, I broke up with her.”

Now she looked less empathetic and more angry. “You did what? But… but why? Why would you ever break up with her? She’s like totally perfect in every way.”

I rolled my eyes. “Thanks, Abbs, that really helps.”

“Well, I’m sorry, Emily, but I just don’t understand. You two seemed so happy. Did she do something or… what? You’ve got to give me more to go off.” She sat down on the accent chair I had near my door, still wringing out her wet hair.

“I got my grade back today for that test,” I told her, ”and I completely failed it. And it just hit me because it’s the first time I failed a test besides, like, that test I was late for and didn’t get to finish. But that didn’t count, it was just because I’d slept in. This was like a real test I’d studied for and finished and was confident that I’d done well… and I still just failed.”

“Aw, Emily,” she said softly, knowing how much this meant to me, “but you’ll do well on the next one, I’m sure.

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